Friday, September 18, 2009
For the past 2 weeks, I have been feeling like I have no control over whats going inside me. Somethings eating me up internally. I feel like closing everything out and focusing on just one thing, something I have control over. School. Ofcourse, I job to go hand in hand but seriously, I dont want money or any luxuries. I just want to be able to afford my books and simple things in life and just work towards my degree in Psychology and get into law school. NOTHING ELSE SEEMS TO MATTER RIGHT NOW! My dream to be loved has died. My dream for alot of things have died. Have I finally woken up and realized something? I don't know what this hollowness is but I just want to take this energy and use it towards school. God give me the strength to get there.